Day 4

I started feeling a lot of tension in my hips and thighs and chalked it up to my working out on Tuesday night. I had a massage yesterday because I couldn't take the achiness. I can really take the ache that comes when I work out too hard, but this was really uncomfortable, like a raw ache that was really deep. I felt a little better after the massage, but then this morning it is back. It is really hard to sit down. It is very interesting to me that I have this. I'm not worried, I'm just really interested. Is this some emotional something coming into my physical world that I should deal with before I can move on? Is what you put into your system as fuel really that much to do with your emotions? Have my efforts to rid my body of unwanted toxins allowing my deep rooted issues to arise in physical form? Since I've never had this sort of ache before and this is my first detox, I can only assume yes! I know I have some problems from my past that I've let go of, but maybe this is something I should resurface for some time and work through it. It's a sexual issue and I think it is manifesting itself in that area to show me where I need to do some mental cleansing as well. I find it comforting that my mind is afterall connected very well to my physical. I think this is an opportunity to connect them even further so that I can grow beyond my past issues. I find it as a gift. I plan to work on this issue in a journal and plan on plenty of tears and an opening of my heart even further. Who knows...maybe it will help my chest pain....maybe it will open my heart even further and free that pain there too. Physical problems are indeed linked to emotional problems and those problems will show up in the area that needs attention and love. I'm ready for that. Who knew this would manifest out of just wanting to reset my system with whole real foods? I sure didn't, but am grateful for the lessons I'll learn!

So on to the food...

To cap off yesterday's blog, I have to finish that day in order to move on.
Last Night's Dinner. 365 Organic Miso Soup, tofu, and steamed veggies ( I had a mixture of broccoli, cauliflower, and carrots). I didn't understand the instructions, so I just put everything together in the soup. It was wonderful, nourishing, warm, tangy and delicious! I really felt full after I ate too. I felt content. Before the detox, I was always thinking of what I could have for dessert after I ate. I almost always needed something to "top up on", as my grandmother used to say. But last night I found myself thinking that and then saying to myself, "THIS is wonderful, THIS is enough, I Don't NEED a sweet after dinner!" This is a pattern I have to break. After the detox I plan to eat sweets once in a while, but definately NOT out of habit. I want sweets to be a special thing. I keep thinking about the old days when cake was served for birthdays, etc. It was really special. Now sweets aren't special. They are so easy to come by and when we have cake or ice cream or chocolate it just is there without any reward or specialness to it. I look forward to enjoying sweets occassionally and really tasting them and enjoying them!

NOW.
on to today....

Morning warm lemon water. check.

Morning warm FlorEssence tea. check.

Breakfast. oh my. this was awful. it really wasn't too bad tasting...it just looked really really really awful! It was 1/2 c. organic Stoneyfield Plain yogurt, 1packet Whole Foods Green Power Powder meal, 1 tbsp Udo's oil and granola. I mixed the yogurt and green powder stuff and the oil together at home and took the granola with me to eat my breakfast at work. I opened it and it instantly looked to me like my daughter's baby poo! It had the color and consistancy of breast fed baby poo! Ok, I thought to myself, "you have to get over it" and I did for a time. I put in the granola and made the mistake of mixing it up. It looked even worse now. chunky baby poo! I quickly put more granola on top to mask the look and just sort of forced it down. Now, I'm not one of those picky eaters at all. I love the taste of stuff most people are turned off by. I'm sort of a hippy that way. I love healthfood a lot, but this was just all the wrong flavor put together. I used bulk granola from Whole Foods (Maple, Almond Granola). That was what I tried to focus my tastebuds on, if that's possible. I got 90% of it down, but gave up after that.

Snack. Hummus and rice crackers. One of my favorite things is hummus. It called for homemade hummus, but I'm a working mother who has 2 jobs. I don't have a whole lotta time for homemade hummus. I bought the Athos roasted garlic hummus. I'm guessing it was supposed to be homemade to cut down on salt. It did have salt in the ingredients...but like I said I just don't have the time to make my own. I will just drink more water today to flush the extra salt out. I can say that I did taste the salt. I don't think I've had any salt in the last 3 days, so my tongue sort of picked up on the salt and it really felt strange.

Lunch. I think my stomach is smaller because I didn't even notice it was lunchtime. The past 3 days I have been impatiently counting down the minutes to my next food intake! I have told some people that if they want time to slow down, do a detox! You sit around just looking at the clock so you can eat again. Especially the eating detox plans. A friend told me the purely liquid detox's are easier. I find that I'm not starving for my next meal today. I looked forward to today's lunch because it was pretty normal food. Egg Salad on sprouted grain toast. I used 2 Free Range Organic eggs, 2 tbsp olive oil mayonaise and 2 tbsp celery. I also added some sprouts. I had bought sprouts for the previous days' lunch and didn't want them to go bad. I figured I could use some more nutrients anyway.

So I've been drinking a little more than 2 quarts of water a day. I don't think I'm going to do anymore gym machines until I'm done. Just yoga. I love yoga and am happy to be spending more time with it. I find that my practice flows really effortless. I move from one pose to the next without even thinking about it. I just go where my body feels like it needs to go. I love to feel my own way through a personal practice and am finding it easier now that I'm getting cleaned out. Before I would struggle with what to do. Now the poses feel like they have more purpose and feel really quite good.

My headaches are all gone. I have a little post nasal conjestion which I'm hoping will clear up soon. I actually feel really good. Today is the first day that I'm feeling like I can and really want to do more. I have to admit, I was thinking about only doing a week of this, but now I feel like I really want to do the rest of the program. We shall see.

Morning Lemon water...check.

Morning serving of Flor Essence tea....check.