Day 2

I figured since I do my updates mid-day when I'm at the front desk at work, I would sort of recap the 2nd part of the previous day before starting on the day at hand.

I had the intention of going to the gym, but was thinking more and more about how I really want to ease into this thing. It seemed a bit much for me on my first day. I was feeling a little crummy and really just wanted to get home, make my food, watch House (yes I said no TV, but I CAN'T STAY AWAY FROM HOUSE!) and go to bed super-d-duper early! So that is exactly what I did. When I arrived home, I was so ravenously hungry, I could have eaten anything! I warmed up my daughter some of my homemade butternut squash soup and set her down at the table while I prepared my food. I thought about just having her eat what I eat on this for dinner, but she wanted soup tonight. On the menu for dinner (for me) was brown rice, steamed veggies and some Udo's 3-6-9 oil. Since it take brown rice 40-50 minutes to cook, I was getting a bit skitzy. Now this is where I just don't understand my body. I have enough extra energy in the form of stored fat to last probably a week or more without eating a bite of anything. Why am I so amped to eat? It had been a good 5 hours since my lunch, but still, I just don't get why I feel like I MUST have food or I'll go crazy and eat everything in the house! My daughter's soup smelled sooooo good. And while it is healthy, it isn't on the plan and I really want to stick to the plan. I put my rice on and set the timer for 40 minutes. I go upstairs, and dry brush and take a short Lush bath with Big Blue bath bomb that has mineral rich salt in it and sea-weed too. I go downstairs in the nick of time to hear the timer go off.....I lift the lid and it IS NOT DONE! I had accidentally turned the heat off instead of to Low. So I set the timer for another 30 minutes, crossed my arms in disgust and sat on the couch. I gave up, I had a piece of Rye bread with butter. Yes, I cheated a little. It was just one piece of bread. I am not going to feel guilty about it though. I felt like I needed something, so I ate something. I made my steamed broccoli and cauliflower in the microwave steamer bag while I waited for the stupid rice! I used no-sodium veggie broth to cook it in. I felt like I needed to add some sort of flavor. I drizzled on about a Tablespoon of Udo's oil and TRIED VERY HARD to eat slowly and intentionally. It was really good, I enjoy brown rice and veggies a lot cooked with veggie broth. I was thinking it would be bland without any salt, but it was really good. I felt good that I had completely a day of the detox. Before bed I had my 2nd small cup of Flora Essence Tea 1 oz/1oz water. I tried to sip it slowly as the instruction state, but I was really excited to get to bed. I felt like I needed sleep very badly. My daughter asked if she could sleep with me and I very gladly said yes. It was nice to cuddle with her on a cold night. I feel more whole when we are together and I felt like that was what I needed after that first day of detox...to be whole.

And NOW...Day 2

I went to sleep around 8:15 last night. When I go to bed that early, I usually wake up with a fair amount of ease. This morning, I just wanted to keep sleeping and sleeping and sleeping. It took A LOT of work to slide out of bed. I took this as a really good sign that my body is trying to reset itself and wanted the sleep in order to repair any past damage. I really feel like doing the same thing today as I did yesterday, but also really want to get in some yoga and stretching. I just hope I don't fall asleep during savasana!

Breakfast. I started my day, as the plan says with a large warm glass of water with lemon. Then on to the tea. I find it really hard to drink the tea slowly. I guess because I am always so rushed in the morning. I really should think about getting up earlier, so I can take my time drinking the lemon water and the tea. I made my soft boiled egg and toast at home, but didn't have time to eat it. I took it with me to eat at work. This wasn't the best thing to eat in the whole world. It was cold, so it wasn't tasty at all! The bread was hard and cold. I just ate it without really tasting it.

My headache isn't as bad today from the coffee withdrawal. In the past, my head felt like someone was hitting it with a hammer all day by the second day. Today isn't that bad. There's a dull ache to my head, but not at all unbearable. I just feel really really tired, almost like I'm in a daze. I literally have to work to keep my eyes open. I had to process payroll today, so I had to come to work. If it was a regular day, I would have called in sick to sleep. I'm that tired.

Snack. Snack time came quickly today because I'm so busy. I already had 17 oz of water (a full VOSS bottle) by the time snack time came. The menu said "homemade trail mix with nuts/seeds". I made mine with walnuts, sunflower seeds, dried bananas and strawberries, and dried cranberries. It was close to a cup. The plan doesn't specify how much, but I figured I needed the calories. That's something I want to eventually figure out...how many calories the plan has me eating. I'm trying not to think of this as a weight loss plan because that isn't my whole intention. I just want to get back to eating whole foods and getting my hormones and inflammation problems under control. But I'd still like to know what my intake is. I planned on eating only half of the snack at 10:30 and the other half at 2:30pm, but I ate it all without really even noticing. It was really good. I got a little worried that the dried cranberries were sweetened, because I'm not supposed to have any sugar. I'm not too sure how sweet dried cranberries usually are, but these were really sweet. It could be that my tastebuds are already used to eating whole foods and something naturally sweet is now REALLY sweet???

Lunch. Goat cheese on sprouted grain bread. I went with the Ezekiel brand bread. I warmed up the goat cheese to make it spreadable and it was pretty good. I don't care for goat cheese usually, but since my calories are so few and far between, it tasted great! Plus I got to eat raw carrots. It was a good solid lunch and I felt confident it would hold me over until dinner.

I decided to go to the gym so that I could sit in the heat sauna and sweat some more toxins out. I also did about 20 minutes of stretching with about 20 minutes on the elliptical. I was hungry, but I kept telling myself I'll be fine and I won't die if I don't eat. I kept drinking more and more water and tried to visualize it cleansing each of my cells. It helped. The heat really helped reinvigorate my drive to stick with the program. There was just something that sort of hit me when I was in there. It is dark in the sauna and I sort of went inside myself and found a deeper resolve and it grew with every long breath. I did some small stretches in there too. I still have the chest pain I have had for almost a year now. I sort of hoped it would be gone, if not, lessened by now. But alas, it persists and I'm starting to wonder if it is inflammation after all.

Dinner. On the menu was Whole Wheat pasta and veggies. I still had left over brown rice and veggies from the night before, so I just warmed that up. It was nice to eat something right when I got home rather than wait for the food to get ready. I took my tea before bed and hit the sack early again at 8:30.