Day 3

I went to bed early again last night, around 8:30pm. I felt it worth mentioning that I woke up exactly 6 hrs later at 2:30am sharp. They, whoever "they" are, say the average adult needs 6 hrs of sleep a night. Could my body be resetting itself? My ayurveda dosha is Kapha, so I could sleep all the time if I could. Before this detox I could sleep a solid 11 hrs a night and still be groggy. I'm hoping this detox resets my system so that I can sleep a good 6-8 hrs and actually wake up refreshed. I went back to sleep very easily and woke up at my usual 6:30am and was groggy and felt like sleeping another hour or more.

Started my day with a glass of warm lemon water as usual, followed up by the Flora tea. I dry brushed before my shower this morning and it felt so good to let the hot water wash over me, I really enjoyed my shower and had a hard time getting out.

Breakfast. "Power" Breakfast. Stoneyfield Organic Plain Lowfat Yogurt, fresh organic blueberries, an organic banana, 1/2 cup mixed seeds and nuts (I used: almond, walnut, pin nuts, and sesame seeds), 1 tbsp Udo's oil, and some almond butter. It called for 2 capsules of probiotics but I forgot those on the counter this morning. I ate it on my way to work. I was so so soooo hungry, I couldn't wait to eat. That sounds so pathetic now that I'm writing it. Oh well, moving on...

Snack. Now this snack was wonderful. I'm sure I'll be eating this as a snack even after the detox is done. An organic apple, some almond butter and some rice crackers. I bought the 365 Sesame Rice crackers from Whole Foods and they were great! I had never tried rice crackers and really enjoy them A LOT! It was a good combination. Again, I intended to maybe eat half in the morning and half in the afternoon, but I was so hungry I ate all of it and it was good too!

Lunch. Now - this lunch SUCKED! I probably would never have chosen to eat this ever and probably won't be able to bring myself to eat it after the detox. It was salad (Organic Mixed Herb Blend from Walmart), sprouts (Alfalfa and Clover sprouts), olives and pumpkin seeds. I forgot my olives, so it was just dry salad, sprouts and pumpkin seeds. First of all the pumpkin seeds fell to the bottom of the bowl because there was nothing sticky to suspend them on the lettuce. The lettuce was quite flavorful, but really not to my liking...just sort of bitter. The sprouts were dry too, so it was like chewing on cardboard. The only flavor I cared for was the pumpkin seeds and those were at the bottom of the bowl and I ate them last. It was good to finish with something that tasted decent.

So here I sit hungrier than a vulture at a vegan farm. It's been 4 hrs since that awful lunch and I'm counting down the minutes till dinner. I'm looking forward to dinner. It'll be miso soup with tofu and veggies. I really like miso soup, so it'll be good. It's already cooked too, so that's really good!

As for how I'm feeling? Hmmm. My caffeine headaches have become very dull. It's more of a residual ache that doesn't bother me. I'm having some discomfort in my jaw. All three days now, my jaw feels really tight. I keep stretching it and opening my mouth really wide to relax it, but it just seems really tense. I looked into buying a Shakti Mat that is used to lay on for accupressure, that you can also lie face down on your jaw to relax the muscles there. But I'm thinking by the time it arrives, the jaw tension will have subsided. I'm looking forward to using it anyway. It's akin to the ancient east Indian tradition of the bed of nails. I found it on ebay for on $35.00 compared to the website for $69.00.

I feel a lot of tension in my hips and thighs. It's probably just from the elliptical trainer last night. But I've used the elliptical many times before without having this particular soreness before. I took 20 minutes to so some hip opening yoga poses in the conference room here at work. I did legs up the wall for 10 minutes and it really helped me feel more focused. I have felt sort of unfocused since I started this. Sort of like I'm walking around in a cloud. Today is the first day it hasn't been so bad. I almost feel like I'm coming out of that cloud. I feel little pockets of bliss throughout the day; kind of like a really clean and peaceful feeling. I really am glad I didn't give in to my cravings for anything junk yesterday. I had that voice in my head saying, "come on, just give up, you know you can't do this, just go get some chinese food!" I have that even now. Writing that was very hard. I just feel like giving up and getting a cheeseburger. I don't even like cheeseburgers!

My stomach is acting a little crazy too. On and off throughout the day today, I've had a sort of pain in my stomach, sort of an achey and churning feeling. It lasts a little bit and then subsides. I'm wondering if that is just my liver trying to process some of the stored up junk. I was thinking about all the junk I've put into my body and wondered how my system is doing in there, trying to process the leftover garbage that could still be in my cells. The fat cells surely are emptying out some pretty nastly stuff.

Incidentally I did weigh myself at the gym last night. I wasn't going to weigh myself throughout this whole deal, but it was sort of taunting me. No, this detox program hasn't gone to my head, it was just taunting me, that's all! I'm NOT doing this for weightloss, though I could afford to lose some weight. I'm really over the whole losing weight thing. I've decided to live my life and not worry about my overly productive fat gene. I'm always going to have some extra bulk, so what!?!? I'm really and truly over it and have accepted myself through and through. This detox is just about resetting my system and being extra healthy and clean again for the first time...wait...who am I kidding? I've never been cleaned out. I've always had junk in my system in one way or another or in some amount or another. This is my first attempt at cleaning out my system. Anyway, back to that stupid scale... So in the 2 days I've lost 4 pounds. Wow! This is a detox, so I'm not going to freak out that I'm losing too much too quickly. I'm sure it's because I have a ton of extra water weight ,etc. and it will taper off soon. As I said in my earlier post, I have 80 - 100 pounds to lose, so it doesn't surprise me that I've lost 4 pounds in 2 days.

That's all for now.